part2 The Test

Weeks had passed by since my initial experience with the orgonite wand and doubt was starting to creep in to my mind. Had the wand really been responsible for that dramatic rush of energy up my spine? I wasn’t able to recreate the event or feel any energy being emitted from the orgonite. I began to wonder just how much of that event was due to my expectations about the devices abilities.

The only sensation I did get was that on a rare occasion I could feel a pulse as I held it tightly in my hand. It was quite faint but definitely a pulse, or was it just the pulse in my hand I was feeling against the object I was gripping. Perhaps I just wanted to believe it worked and the only pulse being felt was in my head.

I needed to find out what was going on. Did orgonite really work, I wondered. I decided to get another opinion. I needed to find someone sensitive enough to detect the subtle energies emanating from the object, if indeed that was possible. I didn’t know if orgone energy was too subtle to be felt directly. However I couldn’t completely deny what had happened to me with the wand so I figured it would be interesting to see what it would do to someone more psychically proficient.

It just so happened that some psychic healer friends were going to be in the area for a meeting about an up-coming conference. Interesting timing I thought. I hadn’t seen them in over six months. I wasn’t intending to take part in the meeting but it would be good to see them again and if I took the orgonite along I could get some valuable feedback. If anyone could feel its energy they could.

This was no ordinary group of healers. Their ages ranged from mid forties to early eighties and they had all had unusual psychic abilities for most of their lives. We had met years before while staying at the crop circle HQ known as The Barge Inn for a crop circle conference. We shared many interests and points of view and have remained friends ever since.

Between them they can do psychic readings, past life regressions, remote viewing, remote healing, archetypal healing, channelling and psychometry. They can see and feel energy with the ability to douse without rods or a pendulum using only their hands. I have great faith in their abilities. I’m sure there are also many other things they can do which they keep to themselves suffice to say these guys are very special indeed.

The day of the meeting came and I grabbed the wand on my way out the house. This is it I thought as I drove, if anyone can determine if this thing is producing energy they can. If they sense something energetically interesting going on with the wand it’s all-good but what if no one feels anything. Do I give up on orgonite, believing it to be a hoax? The thought of a room full of bemused psychics feigning interest in my creation troubled me. By the time I arrived at the meeting I wasn’t sure I wanted anybody to see what I had made. This was a kind of make or break for me and my orgonite and I just couldn’t tell which way it was all going to go.

The door to the meeting at my friends house opened to the sound of familiar voices in the background. I walked in and was warmly received by everyone. Soon finding myself absorbed by the pleasant atmosphere of the gathering and I allowed myself to relax. As it turned out there was also a practical reason to be present for the meeting which I hadn’t seen coming. The group needed a new logo designed for their community-healing organisation. This is just the sort of thing I have a gift for and it felt good to be able to contribute.

I left the meeting room, which by now was in full swing, to get some paper to make sketches and take notes on the many conflicting ideas about the logo. As I bent down to look for paper in a low cupboard I felt the weight of the wand move forward inside my jacket pocket as if to remind me it was there.

As I walked back in to the other room to make notes about the logo I found my mind was already on other things. All I could do was wonder what they would all make of the orgonite wand. I waited until the end of the meeting then picked my moment while refreshments were being served. I’ve made something I’d like you all to take a look at I said.

This was going to be something of a defining test for the wand. If they couldn’t feel anything then not only would it throw my orgonite making abilities in to doubt but I would also have to reassess the whole concept of orgone energy.

The first healer in the circle took the device from me and held it up to see through the clear resin. What is it she asked closing her eyes and holding it to her chest with both hands. My explanation was cut short as she let out an emphatic wow!

The others all turned to see what was going on. Feel this she insisted, passing the wand to the next person in the circle. To my delight the orgone generator, a concept which none of them had come across before was working. They could feel it!

Soon the whole group was involved. I watched, elated as people began walking to the far end of the room with their hands held out dowsing the energy emitted from the partly exposed crystal in the end. Others were discussing the best way to hold it as they tested its instant balancing effect on the chakras. Some were discussing how to activate it to increase the size of the beam.

It was a success, more than that it was a revelation to both them and me alike. I was hoping for a degree of recognition that would prove to me that orgonite emitted energy but this was amazing and they weren’t finished yet.

I can feel it pulsing one of them said. Aha, so perhaps the pulsing that I had felt before wasn’t just my imagination after all. Another went in to a meditative state while holding the wand and proceeded to tell me the thought forms connected to the device.

The room calmed down again and each tried to psychometrically pick up what they could. Holding the wand upright and at heart level they each described their impressions as they held to wand.

It doesn’t know what you want it to do, came the first comment. I just wanted it to work, really work but perhaps I needed to be more specific than that. The connections to thought forms continued. Most described emotions or the physical feelings the device was supposedly producing.

Next one and then two healers both agreed that I had not set any kind of safety restriction when I had made it. I didn’t understand what they were talking about at first but it was explained that as a powerful energy and thought amplifier it could work either way – for the greater good of all or to direct malevolent intent. They insisted that if I had intended a safety protocol to prevent this then it would be part of its reason for being therefore making it very hard to use in any other way.  

Luke Skywalker with Lightsabre

Then I got a surprise. I’m getting Star Wars someone said. What a strange thing to say I thought. As I pondered this another person said that they could see a beam of light coming out the end and that they could see a button in their minds eye to turn it on.

Oh my god! They were reading my mind but not in the present. What they were tuning in to were the thoughts I had had while making it. I remember looking through the vase as the resin was setting and thinking that it reminded me of a light sabre from the Star Wars films. I hadn’t set out to create an object so reminiscent of the Jedi weapon but with the copper ring at the business end I could not help drawing the comparison.

I also remember thinking at the time that if I had drawn the comparison before the resin had started to set I would have added a lapis lazuli cabochon I just happened to have as a symbolic button on the side. I pictured myself at the time holding it as Luke Skywalker and now I was hearing about those thoughts as my orgonite light sabre was being studied.

This was a revelation to me. The only thing that I had intended when I made it was that it worked but then I did not define what “work” actually meant. I also had an idea about it allowing for a connection to the higher self but that was about it. All the other things going through my mind were just background noise as far as the wands purpose was concerned. I decided that I would have to be really careful what I am thinking when I make another one. Actually, what I should do is get my mind really focused and clear to set an intention to programme the object.

Yes; I must programme the next one I thought, but how exactly should that be done, then it struck me - chocolate! I already do this with chocolate. I had been making my own raw chocolate. I took great care over the procedure thinking of it as a kind of alchemy. I became pretty good at making it and word soon spread about the quality of my goods which lead to orders from friends for my raw chocolate.

I never really measured anything out when making it. I preferred instead to go with my intuition. This meant no two batches were the same. Instead of sticking to any kind of recipe what I found myself doing when making chocolate for friends was to picture them as I made it, seeing them enjoying eating my chocolate in my minds eye and trying to get the right sweetness and mix of ingredients. It seemed to work every time. I just tuned in to them visualising the person I was making chocolate for eating and smiling and I would send them and the chocolate love.



Chocolate Alchemy - working with intention

 Chocolate, orgonite, psychics and Jedi’s all coalesced in my head as I drove the back roads home. If I could put a powerful intention in to chocolate then I could apply the same technique to my orgone alchemy. The possibilities seemed to stretch out in to the night with the beam of the headlights. My focus now was to the future. Two of the group were so impressed with the orgonite wand that they asked me to make them one each to aid their healing work. I couldn’t wait to get started. Now I knew just how to do it.

I felt the wand in my pocket and smiled as I pulled it out still driving with my other hand on the wheel. It had been a good day to say the least. As the exhilaration of the wands success now settled in to a contented relief. It seem crazy that only hours before I had doubted myself and the concept of orgonite. I wondered how the wand should be used and where I should take it next or even where it would take me.

Focusing back on the road I couldn’t see very far ahead but I knew if I kept going looking straight ahead I would make it home. Trust, I thought. I just need to trust as I gripped the wand in my hand I could feel its potential and I knew it had more to show me.

part1 In The Beginning

My Orgonite Vision



In the beginning of my journey with orgonite, I was very sceptical. I was a long way from being convinced of its ability to do anything other than rip off gullible hippies, but I was about to learn that orgone works in mysterious ways…

I had come across orgonite years before. It was a Big Green Gathering festival and a friend had purchased an orgonite cone. The resin was not the best and the metal shavings were pretty random in size, shape and position. With great enthusiasm, she relayed to me what she had been told about orgone generators and how they neutralized electro-magnetic pollution by producing positive orgone energy.

I looked at her as she eulogised about orgone energy while trying to work out if she had been duped or had in fact found some sort of do-it-yourself, miracle energy generator. It seemed too good to be true and what of this strange orgone business? Did the cloudy resin and scrap metal combination I held in my hands actually emit anything? I could not decide and so put it on the back burner of my admittedly intrigued mind to come back to after the festival.

Not being able to feel any energy from the device nor understanding the principles of how it worked to any degree of satisfaction, I was in no hurry to research this orgone stuff but neither did I dismiss it out of hand. I decided that it was unlikely anyone would have concocted such an elaborate ruse to sucker money out of festival goers, more likely there was enough in it to warrant further investigation. There was something about it that appealed to me. If I can understand what it is meant to do and how it is suppose to do it then maybe I can try making something for myself I thought. Aesthetically speaking there was certainly room for improvement in the design I had seen but more than anything the combination of experimentation and self-empowerment appealed to me. One day, I thought I must give it a go…

I never did.

The years rolled by and with them all my good intentions. I simply forgot about it, until that is, I visited Brighton.

I had previously been intuitively called to attend a spiritual camp somewhere outside of Brighton in the south of England. When I say called, I mean that I felt a strong inclination that the next piece of the puzzle would be waiting there for me. When I say puzzle I mean the unfolding story of my spiritual progression on life’s journey. Anyway, I had an inkling that the “Heart Space” event would provide me with the next step forward on my path.

Never doubt your intuition. If it is anything like mine it will always keep you on the right path. Sure enough two days in to the event I met a girl who told me all about a type of spiritual/emotional development course that had changed her life. It just happened that the guy that ran it was also there and would be running one of these life changing occasional courses in a couple of weeks time in Rottingdean, Brighton.


I was introduced and listened to everything he had to say. He quickly dispatched all my testing questions about the course to my satisfaction and I began to feel that this could be the next piece of the puzzle I had been waiting for. I had previously decided to go with the intuitive feeling that seemed to be pulling me on towards a new adventure and as the course leader spoke, I felt it again. This was it; I was going to take the course.

The course took the form of an intensive, carefully orchestrated and controlled psychological breakdown of the participants. The idea is that we all have patterns of reactionary behaviour that inhibit and prevent us from expressing our true nature in the moment. These patterns are caused more often than not by some sort of trauma that occurred earlier in life or even in a previous life, which has subsequently become a subconscious filter. By exposing these filters and becoming more consciously aware of them as reactionary patterns, we can choose to become more aware in the moment without them colouring our judgement.

This was not quite what I had imagined from the explanation given to me at Heart Space but I followed the intuition and saw the course through. There were a number of elements that when combined led to moments of deep personal insight. The activities ranged from simple discussions about human behaviour to stress posture positions designed to release emotional blockages, all while being held within a safe environment facilitated by a group of support staff.

Overall, I found the course very helpful with where I was in my life at that time but the reason for mentioning it here is because of the vision I experienced during the first week of the course.

Meditation was one of the many elements we were required to explore. We were taught a meditation technique and given a mantra to use while meditating, once in the morning and once in the evening.

It was while meditating in this way that I started to think about orgonite. After years locked away on that back burner of my mind here it was again. At first I dismissed it as part of the background chatter you can become aware of as you try to still the mind, but the deeper I went the more I thought about orgonite. I hadn’t thought about this in years but over a period of a week’s meditation I decided not only that I would make some orgonite to test the principles for myself but also that the orgonite something should be a personal hand-held device. It was clear to me by the fifth day of meditation that I was going to make an orgone-generating wand. I could see it clearly in my mind and I got very excited as I gathered metal, resin and crystals to manifest an orgonite crystal wand.

The crystal I used as a point emerging from the wand was an etched quartz I had had for years; with it, I combined amethyst, ruby, kunzite, selenite, fluorite and citrine crystal chips. I had been a collector of crystals for years. My affinity with the mineral kingdom began with a school trip to the science museum where my lunch money was exchanged for a rough rose quartz specimen. Now, many rocks later, having studied crystal healing and their metaphysical properties I realised that very few orgonite makers were really making full use of the power of crystals and crystal combinations. I also realised that having collected rocks for so long I now had a new use for some of the minerals I had already gathered.

The metal part was a bit more of a problem. Not knowing any engineering firms in the area to get some swarf from I bought some garden wire instead. To this, I added a copper pipe connecter and a length of chain for a sink plug.

This was all mixed with some polyester resin in a glass vase from a charity shop. Thankfully, the resin set properly allowing me to break the glass around it and retrieve the finished product and within two weeks from first seeing the wand in my meditation the envisioned object was now a 3D reality.




Yeva's Wand - my first orgonite device

    What could it do I wondered. I did not feel its energy as easily back then but I did find it very difficult to put down. I felt drawn to carry it around with me or to sleep with it under my pillow.

One day not long after the wand's emergence from the vase I found myself feeling drawn to place it between my shoulder blades with the point sticking up as I wedged it between my back and the sofa. I began to read a book and soon forgot about the orgone generating crystal combo behind me as it merged in to the folds of the soft cushions I was leaning on.

It must have been a good twenty minutes before I suddenly felt a rush of energy shoot up my spine snapping my head forward with a sensation of opening from the back of my neck up to the crown of my head. It was not an unpleasant feeling; it was more like an expansive, euphoric sense of peace washing over me.

The sensation faded as quickly as it had started and I wondered what had just happened to me, then I remembered the wand sitting behind me. I cocked my head back and felt the exposed crystal point of the orgonite wand meet the base of my skull. What did you just do to me I thought. It seemed I really had produced a powerful energy tool of some kind but how should I use it and what was it capable of? More experimentation was needed and perhaps some feedback from the more sensitive of my friends. I had little idea at that time where those experiments would lead but I knew that my journey with orgonite had just begun.